Dreams

I have been having so many flippin dreams lately; they are quite long as well. Seems like I am dreaming all night, but I am guessing that is not true.


The other night I dreamt about one of my good friends Jenny. We were hanging out and just having a good time. Jenny loves shoes with at least 3" heels; I like them but only wear them in the flip-flop style most of the time. She wears many styles and wears them all the time; they look wonderful on her.


It was funny, in my dream we both had on that type of shoe and we kept getting them mixed up, I was wearing one of hers and she was wearing one of mine, strange huh. Well during the dream I remember her telling me something about when I get old I am going to have problems with my back because of those shoes. I thought that was funny, coming from her.


There was so much more to it, but I have slept since then and have dreamt about other things. I really should just get on here in the mornings and write about them, I may see some type of pattern, you think?



Last night I dreamt about my grandkids, Haley and Morgan. We were in a toy store, in a mall, a huge mall. We seemed to be waiting on someone to show up, so I told them they could get them something while we were waiting. I remember vividly how it felt to be waiting for a child to find something in a very short time.



Justin was terrible at that when he was a little boy. I would give him a few minutes, I would actually tell him, "you only have 15 minutes, then we are out of here". I am sure it had something to do with getting to that next drink or I needed to get home to that husband that was so controlling at the time. Anyway, when Justin would get to that 15 minutes, he would have two or three things in his hands and could still not decide, so I would be pissed off and say, just get them all, let's go! I think after a while he got pretty smart and just did that on purpose! LOL That is ok, today I look back and am so grateful for those moments, if that is all I had in me to be present at that moment, I am glad I was present. Not sure if that makes any sense.


Anyway, the girls in my dream were reacting somewhat like Justin. This morning as I was reading my books and writing in my journal I thought possibly that dream did have some significance in my life today, decisions. I tend to go back and forth on possible decisions that I may think I have to make during my days lately. There are so many, like Justin's toys in his hands, desireable factors and undesireable factors that go along with that decision process; some of those for me today are joy, laughter, conversation/no conversation, security (financial and stability), lonely, happy, are they real or are they made up in my mind, alone, not alone, ad infinitum!


Anyway, I can analyze this to death. I really do enjoy dreaming; I hope they never stop.