A good dream last night.

I dream a lot, not sure why but I do. They are very vivid, I guess because I am such a visual person, maybe. At the beginning of this week I had a "drunk/drug" dream. I was ok with it, but it was so real; it was not about doing the drugs or drinking the alcohol but the insanity that comes with it. I actually woke up in a state of chaos, just those old feelings I used to feel. I actually had to shake it off. Thank God I do not have to do that anymore.


Last nights dream was short and sweet. All I remember was watching my two boys, who are now 25 and 21 years old, walking down the street together going to their dad's home. I could tell Jason was about 7 or 8 years old and Justin was around 2 or 3 years old. Their heighth was what lead me to believe that. Jason was always about a foot or more taller than Justin, back then. Justin now towers over his older bro. They were walking in the old neighborhood that Danny and I lived in when we were married, our first home we bought, we were so proud of that home. It was a nice place to be with children.







Jason had on that tank top (could not find a pic quick enough of that tank) that was a peachish color and those shorts that he looked so cute in; he tanned so well and still does and those colors just looked great on him. Justin was carrying a blankie and was walking close to his brother; they were so close back then. They are not as close as that anymore, but I know it is all about years of age and they will come back to that soon.



I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. There are still times in my life when I have those "should have, could have and if I only would have" moments. I do know today that "we" have recovered from the "issues" of alchoholism. There are so many mothers and fathers in the rooms that have not yet gotten there and some that never do.

My boys are beautiful, charming, happy and doing well today. I thank my God for the gift of sobriety; the willingness to do the work has given me the life I never thought I could have or deserved to have.